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崔礼山

前些日子，妻子体检发现，颈部存在隐患。

Recently my wife had a physical examination to find out that there was something wrong with her neck.

今天，医生要给她做手术。她在北京受煎熬，我在大同忙事业。

The doctor will perform an operation on her today. She is being treated in Beijing, and I’m busy working in Datong.

自然，我的心情惴惴不安，不知道接下来迎接我的是什么。手术难免有风险。

Surely I feel uneasy, not knowing what might happen next. Where there is a surgery, probably there is a crisis.

1984年，我邂逅一位姑娘。她刚从大学毕业，在一所初级中学教英语。她不仅学识渊博，前途无量，而且气质高雅，善解人意。

By accident Imet a girl in 1984. Having graduated from university she taught English at a junior middle school. Not only is she knowledgeable and promising but she is also well-bred and considerate.

我对她一见钟情，爱得如痴如醉。我一直苦苦寻觅的女孩就是她。

I fell in love with her at first. I loved her head over heels. She was the very girl I was looking for everywhere.

三年后，我结婚了，她是新娘。

After 3 years Igot married, and she was the bride.

我生在农村，长在乡下，蜗居于一座破败的老屋。父母脸朝黄土背朝天，入不敷出。

I grew up in the countryside, with a shabby house sheltering me. Both Father and Mother supported the family by farming, unable to make ends meet.

幸运的是，妻子不计较这些。她相信，三十年河东三十年河西。风雨过后是彩虹。幸福在于奋斗。

Fortunately my wife didn’t mind . She believed that everything would change for the better. A happy life is achieved through hard work.

人生的价值不是得到一副好牌，恰恰相反，是把一副烂牌打好。

The meaning of life is not getting good cards, but how to play bad cards well.

美国作家欧·亨利说：“所谓人生，就是一会儿呜咽，一会儿抽泣，一会儿微笑，但多数日子在泪水中读过。”

As the American writer O·Henry said, “Life is made up of sobs, sniffles and smiles, but mainly of sniffles.”

每天，妻子步行上班。我太穷了，连个自行车也买不起。岁月更替，而妻子的衣服不变。除了春节，我们极少吃肉。

Every day my wife went to work on foot. I was so poor that I couldn’t afford a bicycle for her. Year by year she was wearing the same clothing. Seldom did we have meat to eat except during the Spring Festival.

祸不单行。一个夏天的深夜，倾盆大雨袭击了摇摇欲坠的老房子，部分墙体坍塌。我们被迫住进借来的帐篷里。

Misery loves company. On a summer night a heavy rain did a lot of damage to our beat-up old house. Part of the walls collapsed. We had no choice but to stay in a borrowed tent.

1988年10月30日，女儿出生了。怀孕期间，妻子吃乐一些苦头。如今，家里添了一个嗷嗷待哺的婴儿，她越发寝食难安。养大一个孩子，谈何容易！需要母亲好费时间、投入精力，奔波劳碌，不厌其烦和无条件的爱恋。

Our daughter was born October, 30, 1988. Being pregnant my wife had suffered much. Now with a baby at home, she bore more hardships. How difficult it is to bring a baby up！It takes a mother’s time, attention, diligence, patience and unconditional affection.

1995年，我到武汉大学深造，女儿正上小学一年级。妻子一边兢兢业业工作，一边负责女儿的衣食住行。从早到晚，她忙得脚不沾地，看上去比实际年龄老了好些年。

I went to Wuhan University for further studies in 1995, when my daughter became a pupil. My wife alone was burdened with a challenging career and the responsibility of raising a child. She kept occupied day and night, looking a few years old than she was.

今天，我的心里非常难过、内疚、羞愧。妻子最需要我的时候，我却不在她的身边。

Today I am especially sad, guilt and ashamed. When my wife needs me the most, I’m not with her.

一次又一次，泪水模糊了我的眼睛。这是感恩的泪水，也是焦虑的泪水。

Over and over again tears come to my eyes. They are tears of gratitude and concern.