My soul have been cleaning and washing by the Magic of Friendship for the past five years. And for the time being, this bright side won't show if I think it isn't worthwhile, for I know that real world is not Equestria and not so many people have a sense of mutual understanding and mutual respect. They mayn't have one until the entry into the communist society.

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五年来，我的灵魂已经经受了友谊这一魔法的洗礼。现在，友谊这种正面力量只有在我觉得值得的时候才会展现。因为我知道，现实世界并非小马利亚，现实生活中人们的觉悟也没有小马利亚那么高。或许到了共产主义社会，这种愿望才能实现吧。

What I hate most is something that some people act one way to my face and another one behind my back. The past five years have seen so many kinds of situation and it was too disappointed to see the behavior of saying one thing and doing another, if not a court intrigue. I felt that some people have forced me intentionally or unintentionally into accepting their views in exchange for not isolating me/at the sacrifice of giving up my independence from time to time. However, as far as I'm concerned, standing at the opposition of latent rules in the communication with others and turning against the formalism, bureaucratism and dogmatism have been a new normal and political correctness, even if it's not always been an easy target.

我这个人最讨厌别人在我面前一套背后一套。五年来，这种情况我已经面临了太多次，也对别人的言行不一和勾心斗角失望太多次。我时常感受到有人在明里暗里强迫我接受他们的观点，否则就将我孤立。而对我自己而言，反对人际关系中的潜规则，反对形式主义、官僚主义和教条主义已经成了家常便饭和政治正确。

图见小马日记系列图书，电子书可以从B站UP主GD studio处找到

I was shamed and blamed by almost all female students then, whom, I'd had my doubt, was incited by Portia Young and her besties when she was in dire need. And later, I was picked and chosen as a stepping stone to her improvement in her academical performance. Since I was deleted on January 23rd, 2018 for the very first time, I was unfriended twice in a row by the end of 2019. She borrowed my book for the use of her brother and never give it back to date. Maybe she is one who has a great influence on me, but she is not a true friend.

杨**在我情绪上最依赖她的时候发动全班女生对我羞辱，之后还把我当作提高自己成绩的垫脚石。在2018年1月23日第一次将我删除之后又将我连续删除两次，借走我的书给她弟，迄今未还。虽然这种人对我造成了很大的影响，但是这样的人并非我的挚友。

I'd like to extend my gratefulness to the arrival of My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic, the animation that had perted my attention from the emotional burden and done everything it can to stop my silly thought to commit suicide from turning into reality. I owe a profound debt of gratitude to this animation. Maybe years after I'm old, I would fall ill like Alzheimer's Disease, but this animation will be kept in my memory vault forever.

感谢小马宝莉这部动画在我情绪最崩溃的时候来到我的身边。这部动画拯救了我的情绪，在当时情绪濒临崩溃的情况下转移了我的注意力，并竭力避免了我想要结束自己生命的愚蠢想法。这部动画对我来说恩重如山，或许很多年后我会得阿尔兹海默症，但是她将作为我的记忆被永久保存。

本图同样来源于小马宝莉日记系列图书，电子书可以从B站UP主GD studio处找到。

I'm deeply reluctant to hear from the ending of MLP, to be frankly, from the bottom of my heart. Likewise, I'm well aware of the fact that all good things will come to an end. The end of G4 means the birth of G5. Years later, facing the good qualities, such as being nice, mutual respect and considerate towards others become porced from reality, the younger generations in Maretime Bay are inspired by the old legend and embark on their new stage. Someday, I will let go of the past, laugh with life and face the difficulties as well. Not until I succeed, will I stop, because it's for sure that sometimes, all I need to do is believe in my dreams. And when I finally reach my goal, I'll know that it was worth what it took to get there, because the view will be even better than I imagined. I'll be also filled myself with courage and confidence so that I can ask others to respect my thought when necessary, just like Fluttershy. I'll enrich myself mentally and physically, offer myself the potential to judge and make full use of my advantages. If I said so, I'd discipline myself strictly to improve my efficiency under the aforementioned circumstances.

我由衷地为G4小马宝莉的完结感到痛心疾首。但我同时知道，天下没有不散的宴席，第四代旅程的结束意味着第五代的新生。若干年后，面对友好相处、设身处地为他人着想和尊重他人的品质已经成为不切实际幻想的Maretime Bay（晴云字幕组翻译为“小马湾”），新一代的主角们又受到了昔日小马利亚“传说”的鼓舞，开启旅程新篇。而我也将像他们一样放下过去，像他们一样重新笑对生活、直面困难，如不成功绝不鸣金收兵，因为我知道有时候自己得相信自己的梦，当最终实现梦想，我将会知道过程再艰辛都值得，因为最后的风景可能比我想象的都要美丽。同时我也会鼓起勇气、充满自信，在必要的时候要求别人尊重我的意见，特别是要充实自己、增强自己的判断力、发挥自己的长处，如果我说要这样，就一定要在上述条件的基础上严格要求自己，大大提高工作效率。

2023年1月24日

January 24th, 2023

注：

（1）本文是仿照《中国日报》社评文章，在小马即将完结4周年之际，对我与小马相识相知进行了回顾，小马对我的影响不可不谓大。如果文中时态、语态错误，希望大家不吝赐教。如果大家觉得还有其他想法，也可以在评论区说说。

（2）大家可能也注意到了，文中涉及人名的部分，我已经用星号代替了。因为这件事的的确确是真的，我感觉既然事情已经过去那么久了，就不必给人家造成不必要的麻烦了。

（3）事情经过见文章“如何走出失恋”一文。